diediedie.

let me up

my world is spinning

and it just won't stop.

i'm so deep in it

and i've had enough;

i just can't do it again.

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can't even get the words out to express how i feel right now. honestly. there's SO much building up. if only you knew. if only you actually CARED to know. 

really God? come ONNNN. 

allan carter cummings. 

i promise as your aunt 'ginia, i'll always be there for you no matter what. you'll always want to grow up, because i'm right there with you still. but right now, at this very moment, i wish i was little again. when i was too young to be blamed for everything, too young to be the victim of harsh words. i want that again, but i want more than anything to grow up, and leave everything behind. but i promise i'll never leave you buddy. i want you to have somebody to talk to about everything, and trust that they'll understand. even if you don't need to talk ever, i'm still here. i always want to be able to see you smiling and having fun just like i do now, and i want you to grow up free of pain and suffering. i only hope you'll grow up free of scars, the mental ones and the physical ones. i can't stop you from becoming older, but i can help. i love you. <3