"pain is inevitable; suffering is optional." -m. kathleen casey.

letting go of someone, or something is never easy. sometimes it's harder just to wonder what you'll do with out that person in your life, almost as if you needed them to get through the day. today, i had someone ask me something that I’d never given too much time to think about. although there were only two options, it took me a few minutes to ponder on my answer. think about it like this, he said: one guy has everything he needs in life- all of his necessities, and anything he desires. would you rather him tell you he needed you in life, or that he wanted you? My final answer was ‘want’. if a guy had everything he needed, but still wanted me i’d know that he loved me and wanted to be with me. if a guy says he needs you it makes him seem more immature than anything- it makes it seem like he can’t be seen as his own person with or without a girlfriend. truer words have never been spoken. holding on to someone does make you a stronger person physically and psychologically, but to be able to let something go is 20x as hard. you’re letting go of memories, experiences, laughs, kisses, long talks; stuff i can’t even begin to imagine. on a more relaxed note, scarowinds was amaaaaazing. i rode the intimidator for the first time ever, and despite the fact that i was crying and hyperventilating on the way up, then as soon as we starting down the first drop, i opened my eyes and had the time of my life! i got strangely sick, like shaking and nauseous more than likely from dehydration, which wasn’t fun but at least it happened as we were leaving. I think honestly i had the best time on the way home, talking about a bunch of deep stuff with somebody who seems to have more experience with life than somebody twice his age. thank you, adam romero! you ARE a mind ninja! even though i’m not going trick or treating… this Halloween has been awesome. i’d say the best. <3

until next time, xoxo.